[travel] India dreams
My four-day rush through a narrow slice of India was like a really good party... the most amazing and intense experiences just couldn't be photographed.
Despite having spent five days in India, it's never felt entirely real.
Every now and then I stop and experience the fact that I am a conscious being and that I am experiencing what I am experiencing right now right now. It's a reality check on the nature of my own existence. I do these at least once a day without explicitly planning to do so. The funny thing is that they don't work here. Something feels different, as if I'm not really experiencing it and I'm more living in a dream. Many of my visits to exotic places feel like dreams after I have left, but this feels like a dream right now.
I can't chalk it all up to sleep deprivation. I think it's more the intense sensory experience of being here and the first genuine culture shock I've felt in a while.
One image that comes to mind: while traveling on a train, I caught a brief glimpse of a group of squatters living inside a power substation. Yes, inside the thing with 250,000 volt wires near the ground, supported by giant bellows-shaped insulators. Apparently you can live there without getting fried as long as you don't get near certain areas, and even the small children know where those areas are. In India even the poorest women still wear brightly colored saris, so this image came as a flash of bright colorful bodies in a tangle of gray.
Just imagine being on a 3-hour bus ride and looking out the window the entire time because something that striking shows up every couple of minutes. I think thats what's messing with my perception of reality as reality.
Despite having spent five days in India, it's never felt entirely real.
Every now and then I stop and experience the fact that I am a conscious being and that I am experiencing what I am experiencing right now right now. It's a reality check on the nature of my own existence. I do these at least once a day without explicitly planning to do so. The funny thing is that they don't work here. Something feels different, as if I'm not really experiencing it and I'm more living in a dream. Many of my visits to exotic places feel like dreams after I have left, but this feels like a dream right now.
I can't chalk it all up to sleep deprivation. I think it's more the intense sensory experience of being here and the first genuine culture shock I've felt in a while.
One image that comes to mind: while traveling on a train, I caught a brief glimpse of a group of squatters living inside a power substation. Yes, inside the thing with 250,000 volt wires near the ground, supported by giant bellows-shaped insulators. Apparently you can live there without getting fried as long as you don't get near certain areas, and even the small children know where those areas are. In India even the poorest women still wear brightly colored saris, so this image came as a flash of bright colorful bodies in a tangle of gray.
Just imagine being on a 3-hour bus ride and looking out the window the entire time because something that striking shows up every couple of minutes. I think thats what's messing with my perception of reality as reality.